Friday, 19 November 2010

..我想家了~

从一打开电脑到现在。。
心情只有越来越低落。。
我不知道怎么了。。
此时。。没有烦恼。。也没有不愉快的事情发生。。
我不知道为什么会有这样的感觉。。
胸口闷闷的。。
整个。。
唉。。一时之间。。也想不到适当的形容词。。
此刻的心情。。
是因为少了同伴们的欢笑声吗?
还是因为看了别人的日志而有所感触?

好遗憾。。真的。。

考完试~当老师们都把考卷发下来后。。
班上的同学都尽情享受考完试的乐趣。。
有的围在一起玩。。或象棋。。或西洋棋。。或UNO卡。。
有的静静坐在一旁。。或发呆。。或看书。。或趴在桌上。。
我属于看书的那一群。。
直到有一天跑去帮老师做工。。
之后。。就天天都不在班上了。。
我享受着能帮老师忙的乐趣。。
因为。。小学时那种感觉又回来了。。
我开心。。我得意。。
却不知自己忽略了一些东西。。

步入假期。。
我才知道。。
我想家了。。
是第二个家。。
哦不。。是第三个。。
好后悔自己当初没有好好珍惜最后与他们相处的机会。。
每天沉浸在自己的世界里面。。
青山。。还有青山的朋友们。。你们好吗?

或许是音乐软件此刻播出的歌曲有点悲情吧。。
是上次华文老师介绍的《毕业歌》。。
直接有要分离的感觉。。
甚至。。有点想哭。。

我想。。我还是先去睡吧。。
说不定。。明天一早起来。。又是新的开始。。新的感觉。。
我知道。。假期。。不该以这样的心情面对。。
应该要开心。。要珍惜。。还要善用。。

祝福我,也祝福坐在电脑前的你。。
愿:假期愉快n充实

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

独守寂寞

第一次。

第一次在这样一个寂静的清晨,淋着这样冷的水。听说冷水澡能让人静下心来整理思绪,我决定姑且一试。

满满一缸的水,经过一夜月光浴,冰冰又凉凉的。我舀一勺冷水,淋在头上,任地心引力发挥其作用,让水自头缓缓流下。冰凉的水,像是吸收了月亮婆婆的温柔,轻轻地,轻轻地抚摸着我。热滚滚的皮肤渐渐冷却,整个人感觉也舒畅了许多。

我理一理头上那“三千烦恼丝”。唉,在如此寂静的清晨,有谁会听见我心中的呐喊?

又一勺冷水自头顶徐徐流下。唉,凄凉的感觉,只有这冷水能懂。

我任那股冰凉在身上奔腾,慢慢渗入皮肤,沁入心脾。再淋一勺,再一勺,再一勺。一勺接着一勺,冲不走心中的郁闷,但冰凉的水,终能带来几丝安慰。

屋外传来引擎开动声,是妈妈上学去了。昨夜那句话再次回响在耳边:“你若要为别人着想,就什么都别为自己想!”感觉像是一记耳光打在脸上。我欲言又止,深怕惹怒了眼前这位曾经付出耐心与爱心教育我的人。

“我做错了吗?”我自问。

记得从小您告诉我们,凡事不能自私自利,要懂得顾及他人的感受,己所不欲勿施于人。我一直都将您的教诲铭记于心,并将其时间在生活中啊。怎么……

唉……

记得上次,我将心中的愤愤不平道出。我并不期待你会站在我这一边替我说话,也不曾想过你会说出任何鼓励抑或安慰的话,只是真的无从发泄,才会选择对您倾诉。谁知,您说出的话令我咋舌,完全不敢相信自己的耳朵。

“既然别人也是那样,就不要自扮清高了。”天!原来遵守自己的原则也能被说成是自扮清高!而且说这话的人竟然是……

“你就是这个样,每次讲你都不肯接受,stubborn到要死!……”您见我低头不语,不知哪儿来骂人的灵感,继续炮轰我。我的脑里一片空白,只能呆呆地望着您上下移动的双唇。突然之间,觉得眼前的您是多么的陌生……

Wednesday, 4 August 2010

❤TEENSPIRIT❤13TH ENGLISH CAMP

17-18 July 2010—
~A very meaningfully weekend for me~
~The funniest camp that I’d ever join before~

——i'm really elated and jubilant to have the time together with my friends…n I sincerely hope that I can have such fun again…especially with the form 4 & 5 seniors…who r going to graduate from SMJK Pei Hwa soon…

On the morning I reached the school~
the first thing that made me laugh—
Cong Ern: “who is this har?”
Jiayuan: “she’s kai xiang’s sister.”
Cong Ern: “who dunno la~”
Jiayuan: “==”

Right at 8.00am, we queued up n walked to the hall, put our things aside, n started our activities.
like “I Lay” a lot~~~ and also:
• our group name—JESSIE.
• our group response— YES MUM?
• our group cheer—
JESSIE JESSIE JESSIE
HOT N SPICY
WOO~
JESSIE JESSIE JESSIE
TALK TALK TALK
TALK HOLLEY SEA !!!

The next activity was Magazine Maker..
Zet Wei is really suitable to be a reporter, or maybe KP is more appropriateXP
Bt im really awed by his wide vocabulary~terror!
Our magazine get quite low marks..but we get highest mark in the activity~
把拔said mayb we got marks from the process of interviewing~
n I’ve read other groups’ magazines…
The magazine that obtained the highest mark is really gooood--proper English, right grammar, and interesting phrases in the whole magazine.

After lunch, we had the survival…
I was too sampat during the games..n my clothes had been all wet n drenched…n had a foul stench—we played with mud!
1st station>>at makmal rendah..one two jus n the people who win can pour water on the looser…>>I was lucky that I was still dry till we leave the station~
2nd station>>outside of 5sc1 class room..bring water from one side to another side——using our clothes!..n the people there pour flour on us when we go through under the table>>Yee Ting was free at that time..so she come to kacau..until my back was full of flour~
3rd station>>bilik seni...shenyi n ah ko's station...they asked english proverb..n those who had answered the questions correctly can burst another ppl's belon, which was filled of flour or water...
4th station>>basketball court..yee ting was one of the boss there...chair-passing n threw the basketball into the "basket"...
5th station>>tempat letak motosikal…..Xinyu is quite good at tricking ppl..haha…each group was asked to prepare two representative to go through the "spider web"...then the whole group crawl on the floor, which had been poured flour n water...my shirt become so so sooo dirty....However, it's still not the most challenging game~
6th station>>crawling under the tables n in the mud><..this was the station that i've been the most active in all of the games...yi qing bad bad de~poured lots of water with mud on ppl's head..all of us looked so terrible..n bring along a foul stench......many of us got minor injured here...poor szeyun~her leg was pain n she had been suffered~
7th station>>honestly said that i dunno wat r we going to play here...juz few of us chipped in this game~
8th station>>the last station..n the most terrible..some of us..who were not so lucky even get the cards written "buttosk" n "chin"! i dunno whether eileen had fun or not..she was a pair with zhong yee..haha(kidding only ya~)

After that was the war of water...our group loose miserably~

Then, we took our bath...rest...discussed for the activities at night...

We took our dinner, rest for a while, n we warmed up with "I Lay" first. Ann was not so lucky..she had a bad stomachache...the poorest thing is she cannot laugh..as laughing will worsen her condition~

Later was the Talent Show, which was really toooo suitable for "hiao bo" to show his superb showmanship! He, erm..i mean she..could even do the actions like..ehem ehem...at first i was not so enjoy..mayb i should think well about wat 把拔wrote in my booklet^^

During the treasure hunt, we were all worn out but we got nothing...and...i even saw ah lee(huimin), who were in the Slinky Dog group, juz sat on the ground n slept!

At 1.00a.m. we were appreciate to have a sweet dream~
but poor ajk, they still had to guard n round throughout the night...
however, they were all still being very sporting during the activities on the second day.
Thx a lot to them!

The story of the second day...
The most unforgettable thing is i'd tasted many types of "local food" in pei hwa..haha
~the bi juice(banana, bitter guard, carrot, ginger n lots of outlandish things)
~the bi noodles(the cooked noodles, added wif sambal, chilli padi n a little white vinegar..quite yummy!)
~biscuit + wasabi
I've also crawled on the floor until my shirt(i was wearing a white shirt) looked toooo terrible...at last i borrowed xuanxuan's shirt to change..as i'm afraid that i will b scolded if i carry the smell to mum's car~
And one more memorable thing, i've carried all the girls in my group! kaka

The camp came to the end when we started to clean the school compound, followed by the closing ceremony, n the prize giving.
Our group was the best group...Zet Wei got the best member award....while Kai Qin got the best facilitator award.
With that, our two-days-one-night camp ended.
p/s: fortunately gor gor had sms yee ting to ask for the time we ended..so mum could fetch me right at the time.

Really a wonderful n marvelous camp...hope i'll join it again~^^

Saturday, 24 April 2010

牵手

牵手
意味着什么??
妈妈对孩子的疼爱?
孩子对妈妈的依赖?
子女对年迈父母的关怀?
情侣传递爱的媒介?

仰或是世人对灾黎的不拾?
陌生人对卖“火柴的女孩”的同情?
天真儿童看到孤独老人时的难过?
还有
朋友之间的相知相惜!!

小学的时候
不曾和任何同学 手拉手~\(≧▽≦)/~一起走
就连最亲密的好友也未必有过
或许是因为
当时交的朋友
都不习惯酱做
而我也从来没想过
朋友之间也会牵手

中一时
有一次
第一次
有同学邀我一起去~~——我忘了
然后就很自然地牵起我的手...

奇妙的感觉自手心传到心里
有种前所未有的感觉
好开心→到极点^
也不知道怎的
牵一个手
感觉酱多
也不懂是不是自己想太多
说不定人家只是习惯
但
就是有种特别的力量
有这种感觉
说不定我们注定会成为好朋友!

牵起一个心灵受伤的人的手
能量是不是会更大
是不是肢体的接触
能拉受伤者一把
或是让人感受到你的诚意
就像我当时那种奇特的感觉

一封迟来的信

昨晚。。
功课做一半。。
瞧见书桌一角搁了好久的《一封迟来的信》
要翻?
不要?
要?
不要?
结果。。
最后还是敌不过自己的欲望,当晚扫完整本。。
然后。。
感触好多好多哦~

不知是被故事情节touch到了。。
仰或是触景伤情,一时悲从中来。。
书里的主角,怎么如此似曾相识?
书里的一字一句。。
故事情节的发展。。
说的那个人。。。
一切都感觉好熟悉~~
“不会保护自己”这话,不是只对筱莹说的吧~

筱莹会和朋友发生误会,倒还只是被人离间。。
另加爱琳认为她对朋友不真诚。。
那。。。。。。

曾经~什么时候。。我们也享受过一起相处是的快乐时光。。
不知~什么时候。。才发现,“朋友”与“真心”并不是每一次都能画上等号的。。

唉。。过去的就让它过去吧。。
反正我已努力尝试挽回。。

只是不知道。。
自己面对朋友的心境。。
是否还能那样毫无保留,对朋友投以100%的信任~
我很想。。现在也在这么做。。
而我也相信,现在的我做到了。。
只是。。
有时不免会幻想,当发生“利益关系”时,
朋友们。。都能真心对待彼此吗?
朋友们。。都不会弃我而去吗?
他们。。能不计较自己的感受。。祝福我吗?
当你想要的东西。。被我无心占有。。你还会把我放在第一位吗?

然,这一切,现在担心太多也没用。
我相信,更重要的是把握现在,彼此相知相惜,真心相待。。
期待彼此的友谊能天长地久,永不褪色。。
就算~就算有一天真的发生了不愉快的事,至少我不会留下遗憾~

Thursday, 4 March 2010

TIME IS NOT ENOUGH!

The exam is finally over today.
If last year, i must have shouted happily "yeapi", "hooray", "yahoo"...
But, this time....soo difficult~~
I am worried that many subjects will not get A.
Actually it's not the fault of the exam paper at all.
It's all my fault, since i didn't use time wisely!
(I think others have a same experience as mine)
I have too little time to study for this exam..
and I had made my revision only at the eleventh hour!
During the days, i was forced to burn midnight oil unti 1 or 2 o'clock.
As a result, i don't get sufficient sleep and do extremely bad in the exam.
wuwu~~~wanna cry~~~
i'm thinking that if i get more then one B, i think i would commit suicid ...!

Well, what causes me don't have confidence at all for this exam?
Firstly, I think the CNY, i mean the holiday,make me too excited welcoming another new year.
All of my cousins come back with their parents...
I had a wonderful and great time with them,since everybody had not met each other for a long time already...
and i almost forgot that the exam is round the corner!
Definitely, i didn't do any revision at all in the holiday.

Secondly, the homeworks during a week before the exam never reduce.
Moreover, there was "sukantara" during the week and i had been staying in school for it.
Every day, i was busy finishing the homeworks.
I dun have more time to study, if i wish to sleep early.
So, that week, i didn't have time to do revision too.

Until Friday, the Maulud Rassul...
It was public holiday...the first day i study for exam....

It's not a good experience to do revision at the eleventh hour.
What i can say is, too bad!
It will cause you to have "nightmare" every day.
Not only have no sufficient time to study, yet time to sleep is also being limited.
Feeling dizzy and confusing when you are answering the question, although you know most of them.
You may forget every thing that you have learn or study study.
Really a bad experience for me...
I should say that, i shan't let this happen anymore.
I must promise to myself to use my time wisely since today.

Hope everyone will get satisfying results.

Saturday, 13 February 2010

新年到了~

前天,忙着写新年贺卡——功课没做……
昨天,整个下午在写春联,最后却是一场空——
墙上没增加任何对联,功课也还剩下一箩筐……
今天是除夕。
我坐在靠窗的书桌前,一边做功课,一边感受被春风抚摸的感觉。
中午的天气非常热的说。
风很大,但,都是热风。
看窗外的天,好蓝好蓝。
屋外种的树,也拼命随着春风起舞。
就连我桌上的簿子,都会移动~!
做了半天的功课,也忍了半天的网瘾。
最后趁着下午4点,终于开电脑了。
原本有一大堆的委屈,想通过键盘倾诉。
谁知道电脑一直当机,妹妹又在旁边抢着要玩。
50多封的电邮都还来不及看完,5点就被迫把电脑交给她。
fb还没去看;blog来不及update……
我快闷得快发慌了!!!
最后拿起相机,到屋外放松心情去了。






此时才发现,今天五点的阳光竟像平时中午十二点的那么热。
远处的树木叶子开始发黄、凋零。
晒了好一阵子,最后还是进屋子里去了……
从刚才就等、等、等,等到现在,才有机会上来看看~
但身旁又有人催着要用了。。。。。。
期待~
期待明天赶快到来~
等表哥表姐们都回来,就会开始有新年的心情了~
继续等吧~
前天&昨天已经过去。今天还剩7个小时。
明天,明天他们就要回来了。
等。。。新年。。。