“蛤？！”
和许许多多的人一样，一接到消息，“蛤”是我的第一反应。这声“蛤”的背后，是吃惊，是震撼，更多的是，希望第二次能听到不一样的答案……
很难接受，却不得不接受。
从知道你入院，到听闻你病态严重，当中心情的起伏是巨大的。不住地为你祈祷、祝福，急切地希望他们能捎来关于你的好消息。
时间很短。短得让人不知所措。
或许，这就是你与大家上一世结下的缘。
很短，但却留下回忆。
你用生命教育我们，应该更懂得把握当下，因为生命无常。你让你身边的人，对珍惜身边的一切，有了更深的体会。
你的位子，就在我隔壁。我总是很容易就想起你……
你走后，我更担心的是你的家人。母子连心，失去爱儿的痛，我怎想象不到？好希望你的母亲能赶快振作起来，把对你的爱加倍付出给你的兄弟。
至少，在时间即将停止的最后一刻，他们都伴你走过了。至少，他们没有让最后的最后，留下遗憾。
愿爱你的人能尽快走出伤痛。
愿你安详地离去，来世乘愿再来。
我将各种 喜怒哀乐 酸甜苦辣 内心的声音——统统化为文字。用文字诉说人生。用文字 一点一滴 汇成河流。~~一条永无止境 永不停歇 用生命唱歌 的河流。任河水怎么冲洗 永远冲不走的是我曾经历过的 人 事 物，以及我的记忆。
Friday, 22 July 2011
Saturday, 25 June 2011
“关”心
曾经，我的心不见了，但很庆幸不久后它回来了。
而今，心虽然没有不见，但它却被层层烦恼覆盖着。
我不停地钻、不停地钻，却始终找不到出路。
心不见了，会“没有心”。
于是，没有心上课、没有心读书、没有心考试、没有心做功课……
没有心做任何事情。
但是，被遮盖了，心，还在。
只是，被盖住的心，变得不“开心”了。
是不是，等乌云散开以后，就会“开心”了呢？
那要等到什么时候？
如果是乌云，我还能等它散开；但如果那不是风吹即散的乌云而是石头，
那找不到出路，是不是就永远被困在里面了呢？
心，我知道你没有不见，快点“开心”吧！
而今，心虽然没有不见，但它却被层层烦恼覆盖着。
我不停地钻、不停地钻，却始终找不到出路。
心不见了，会“没有心”。
于是，没有心上课、没有心读书、没有心考试、没有心做功课……
没有心做任何事情。
但是，被遮盖了，心，还在。
只是，被盖住的心，变得不“开心”了。
是不是，等乌云散开以后，就会“开心”了呢？
那要等到什么时候？
如果是乌云，我还能等它散开；但如果那不是风吹即散的乌云而是石头，
那找不到出路，是不是就永远被困在里面了呢？
心，我知道你没有不见，快点“开心”吧！
Sunday, 19 June 2011
今天。。。
好久没来了。
最近都喜欢把文字留在笔记本上，再不然就是面子书。
整个下午，对着电脑。
本来该是要用电脑做功课的，最后还是……唉，不想提了。
看了某个今年认识的新朋友的部落格，感触蛮深的。
在学校里的多重身份，感觉像是寻获知音，尽管我们见面不多次，交谈也不多。
找回了继续奋斗的动力，不想再消极下去。
是的。其实最近那股对活着的热忱已经回来了，就只是……
一想到明年又要再次上演的烦人的事情，就觉得好烦。
算了吧，都说是明年了咯。
把握当下比较重要。
只能期待，不会有太多预料外的事情发生，我怕我会措手不及。
那些恼人的烦恼啊，只希望，我能一一克服。=)
最近都喜欢把文字留在笔记本上，再不然就是面子书。
整个下午，对着电脑。
本来该是要用电脑做功课的，最后还是……唉，不想提了。
看了某个今年认识的新朋友的部落格，感触蛮深的。
在学校里的多重身份，感觉像是寻获知音，尽管我们见面不多次，交谈也不多。
找回了继续奋斗的动力，不想再消极下去。
是的。其实最近那股对活着的热忱已经回来了，就只是……
一想到明年又要再次上演的烦人的事情，就觉得好烦。
算了吧，都说是明年了咯。
把握当下比较重要。
只能期待，不会有太多预料外的事情发生，我怕我会措手不及。
那些恼人的烦恼啊，只希望，我能一一克服。=)
Monday, 6 June 2011
The Sound of Silence
“hello darkness my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted
In my brain still remains
“Within the sound of silence
In restless dreams I walked along
Narrow streets of cobble stone
Beneath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed
By the flash of a neon light
That split the light
And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence
Fool said I You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the walls of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the signs said The words of the prophets
are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
Whispering in the sounds of silence”
——"The Sound of Silence", written by Simon Paul, recorded in Simon & Garfunkel's first album, Wednesday Morning, 3 AM
What u see above is the lyric of "The Sound of Silence". I accidentally heard this song once n fall in love with it miraculously. I love this song, no matter it's lyric or the melody, and also the melodious voice of Simon and Garfunkel. And this is what Simon said in an interview with Terry Gross of National Public Radio (NPR), "I think about songs that it's not just what the words say but what the melody says and what the sound says."
There was many types of interpretion from many people. Some says that the song was written after the asassination of John Kennedy. Some says that it's an 'anti-war song' as by the time it became popular, it was also the time when the Vietnam War was on.
Some says that the song is about man's lack of communication with his fellow man. Some says that it is about someone who has found truth, come to some kind of self awareness, truer perception of reality or something like that but at the same time he sees that most people are not singing from that hymnsheet. Some think that it is about a teenage angst or frustration.
At the same time, many people have various perspective towards the lyrics. Just take the sentence "people talking without speaking" as an example. Some think that this refer to the present ongoing of this world--people now can make a gesture or manner to let others know what he or she is thinking without speaking out a single word. Some think this means that the people communicate with each other through their hearts. There are also people say so, "In 1964, there was no mobile texting and net chatting going on so i doubt that 'talking without speaking' refers to this." There are still a lot of examples, but i think it's better to search for it on your own if you are interested.
Some people even found the parallel in litereture and movie. As example, the novel Steppenwolf written by Hesse.
Example 1 on Page 29 (of OWL's 1990 Steppenwolf reprint): Hesse's main character (Harry Haller) is walking alone at night in the rain. He writes:
"I trod the moist pavements of the narrow streets. As though in tears and veiled, the lamps glimmered through the chill gloom and sucked their reflections slowly from the wet ground."
Simon: "On restless streets I walked alone, Narrow streets of cobbled-stone"; "Neath the halo of an old street lamp".
Example 2 (on Page 37):
"I loitered as I wended my way homeward; turned up my collar and struck my stick on the wet pavement".
Simon: "I turned my collar to the cold and damp"
There's more too. During this night time walk, Hesse's character discovers a strange sign in the darkest of alleyways - a decidedly ELECTRIC SIGN... The NEON LIGHT in Simon's song - Only in the novel Hesse's sign says: "MAGIC THEATRE; ENTRANCE NOT FOR EVERYBODY; FOR MADMEN ONLY!"
Apart from that, "The Sound of Silence" has a lot of meaning in the movie The Graduate. The lyrics refer to silence as a cancer, and if people in the movie had just been honest and not afraid to talk, all the messy things would not have happened. Problems can be solved only by honesty.
Sooo, it's quite interesting for me, for the same lyric of a song can bring different meaning to different people. It's really a strange thing to find the meaning of a lyric besides listening to the song, right? Anyway, it's fun!
Hope u'll enjoy it.
Referance: http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?id=796
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted
In my brain still remains
“Within the sound of silence
In restless dreams I walked along
Narrow streets of cobble stone
Beneath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed
By the flash of a neon light
That split the light
And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence
Fool said I You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the walls of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the signs said The words of the prophets
are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
Whispering in the sounds of silence”
——"The Sound of Silence", written by Simon Paul, recorded in Simon & Garfunkel's first album, Wednesday Morning, 3 AM
What u see above is the lyric of "The Sound of Silence". I accidentally heard this song once n fall in love with it miraculously. I love this song, no matter it's lyric or the melody, and also the melodious voice of Simon and Garfunkel. And this is what Simon said in an interview with Terry Gross of National Public Radio (NPR), "I think about songs that it's not just what the words say but what the melody says and what the sound says."
There was many types of interpretion from many people. Some says that the song was written after the asassination of John Kennedy. Some says that it's an 'anti-war song' as by the time it became popular, it was also the time when the Vietnam War was on.
Some says that the song is about man's lack of communication with his fellow man. Some says that it is about someone who has found truth, come to some kind of self awareness, truer perception of reality or something like that but at the same time he sees that most people are not singing from that hymnsheet. Some think that it is about a teenage angst or frustration.
At the same time, many people have various perspective towards the lyrics. Just take the sentence "people talking without speaking" as an example. Some think that this refer to the present ongoing of this world--people now can make a gesture or manner to let others know what he or she is thinking without speaking out a single word. Some think this means that the people communicate with each other through their hearts. There are also people say so, "In 1964, there was no mobile texting and net chatting going on so i doubt that 'talking without speaking' refers to this." There are still a lot of examples, but i think it's better to search for it on your own if you are interested.
Some people even found the parallel in litereture and movie. As example, the novel Steppenwolf written by Hesse.
Example 1 on Page 29 (of OWL's 1990 Steppenwolf reprint): Hesse's main character (Harry Haller) is walking alone at night in the rain. He writes:
"I trod the moist pavements of the narrow streets. As though in tears and veiled, the lamps glimmered through the chill gloom and sucked their reflections slowly from the wet ground."
Simon: "On restless streets I walked alone, Narrow streets of cobbled-stone"; "Neath the halo of an old street lamp".
Example 2 (on Page 37):
"I loitered as I wended my way homeward; turned up my collar and struck my stick on the wet pavement".
Simon: "I turned my collar to the cold and damp"
There's more too. During this night time walk, Hesse's character discovers a strange sign in the darkest of alleyways - a decidedly ELECTRIC SIGN... The NEON LIGHT in Simon's song - Only in the novel Hesse's sign says: "MAGIC THEATRE; ENTRANCE NOT FOR EVERYBODY; FOR MADMEN ONLY!"
Apart from that, "The Sound of Silence" has a lot of meaning in the movie The Graduate. The lyrics refer to silence as a cancer, and if people in the movie had just been honest and not afraid to talk, all the messy things would not have happened. Problems can be solved only by honesty.
Sooo, it's quite interesting for me, for the same lyric of a song can bring different meaning to different people. It's really a strange thing to find the meaning of a lyric besides listening to the song, right? Anyway, it's fun!
Hope u'll enjoy it.
Referance: http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?id=796
Friday, 3 June 2011
心晴^^
步入假期的第……一、二、三……七天了。对，没错，是第七天，但却是我第一天真正感受到假期的快乐。
今天妈妈带着我们四个小瓜去麻坡，做了很多一年中没几次机会做的事情。我们去比萨屋、去看电影，更开心的是，买了很多很多的书！这些看似平常的事，很奇妙的，就这样让我一直以来郁闷的心情，无端端的就好起来了。
在车上，还是像平时一样吵吵闹闹。可是一路上就是很开心，不知道为什么，莫名的开心，就像之前莫名的心情不好一样，哈哈。
很希望你会看到这篇博文。远在东海岸的你，别再为我担心了，我已找回了开心生活的原动力^^其实想到你难得回家，我也不想去烦你的，可下午就是忍不住发了信息过去，希望没影响到你的心情。老实说，想念，真的会像池中的涟漪一样，慢慢扩散、慢慢扩散。这假期你过得还不错吧？记得你说过要请我们吃虾饼的，我没忘记过你说的话哦！
噢噢，妈妈在骂我浪费时间了，今天就先到这儿吧！
今天妈妈带着我们四个小瓜去麻坡，做了很多一年中没几次机会做的事情。我们去比萨屋、去看电影，更开心的是，买了很多很多的书！这些看似平常的事，很奇妙的，就这样让我一直以来郁闷的心情，无端端的就好起来了。
在车上，还是像平时一样吵吵闹闹。可是一路上就是很开心，不知道为什么，莫名的开心，就像之前莫名的心情不好一样，哈哈。
很希望你会看到这篇博文。远在东海岸的你，别再为我担心了，我已找回了开心生活的原动力^^其实想到你难得回家，我也不想去烦你的，可下午就是忍不住发了信息过去，希望没影响到你的心情。老实说，想念，真的会像池中的涟漪一样，慢慢扩散、慢慢扩散。这假期你过得还不错吧？记得你说过要请我们吃虾饼的，我没忘记过你说的话哦！
噢噢，妈妈在骂我浪费时间了，今天就先到这儿吧！
Tuesday, 31 May 2011
遗憾
是的。遗憾。
不是因为飙车合法化了，只是气自己，怎么那么容易就乱了阵脚？
是啊，回想起那一刻，我是不是太不够镇定了？
人一慌，就真的什么都不会了。
没信心，结果连打岔都不敢了。
真糟糕。
不过这场比赛倒也带来了不一样的收获。
最起码，很荣幸的，竟然有机会跟冠军队伍交锋。
能够说这次是去见世面吗？
明年，明年还有机会。
是的，但这是我。
中五的他们一直说要留级，明年再来参加。
唉，过去了，真的就只剩下遗憾。
唯一能做的是，接下来通过各种管道让自己进步，明年一定要做的更好。
不是因为飙车合法化了，只是气自己，怎么那么容易就乱了阵脚？
是啊，回想起那一刻，我是不是太不够镇定了？
人一慌，就真的什么都不会了。
没信心，结果连打岔都不敢了。
真糟糕。
不过这场比赛倒也带来了不一样的收获。
最起码，很荣幸的，竟然有机会跟冠军队伍交锋。
能够说这次是去见世面吗？
明年，明年还有机会。
是的，但这是我。
中五的他们一直说要留级，明年再来参加。
唉，过去了，真的就只剩下遗憾。
唯一能做的是，接下来通过各种管道让自己进步，明年一定要做的更好。
holiday's coming
Well, it has been a long time i didn't write in English. Feeling very strange to this language...which is the language left by the colonial before .
It's the first semester holiday now. Two weeks...not going to school, not going for any activity, not going anywhere, and hav rest at home...I've been looking forward to this holiday, as i'd been very busy before this. But, today, it's the first day i stay at home since i've just come bac from penang for the debate, somehow I've started to miss my friends in the school ady...That feelings..it cum bac again..:(
I shall benefit this holiday, that's wat i said before. Lots of things to do in this holiday. Hoping that i will use my time wisely.
It's the first semester holiday now. Two weeks...not going to school, not going for any activity, not going anywhere, and hav rest at home...I've been looking forward to this holiday, as i'd been very busy before this. But, today, it's the first day i stay at home since i've just come bac from penang for the debate, somehow I've started to miss my friends in the school ady...That feelings..it cum bac again..:(
I shall benefit this holiday, that's wat i said before. Lots of things to do in this holiday. Hoping that i will use my time wisely.
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